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0一月十八日 起步便是解脱
我们既渴望操控别人，也渴望被操控，若是能理解其背后的驱力，也许就不会受到权威的影响而变得瘫痪了。我们总是渴望能做得正确、成功，知晓一切，而这份想要确知，想让一切都能永恒不变的欲望，往往会借着个人经验建立起自己的权威，也会在外界制造出社会、家庭、宗教等的权威。但若是刻意去忽视权威，或摆脱掉所有象征权威的东西，也是没有多大意义的事。
脱离某种传统而臣服于另一种传统，离开某个精神领袖去追随另一个，都不过是表面的姿态罢了。若想觉察臣服于权威的整个过程，认清内心的真相，了解并转化那份想要确知的欲望，就必须发展出觉察力和洞见。其实起步便是解脱，不是到了结尾才获得解脱。
January 18
Free at the beginning
If we can understand the compulsion behind our desire to dominate or to be dominated, then perhaps we can be free from the crippling effects of authority. We crave to be certain, to be right, to be successful, to know; and this desire for certainty, for permanence, builds up within ourselves the authority of personal experience, while outwardly it creates the authority of society, of the family, of religion, and so on. But merely to ignore authority, to shake off its outward symbols, is of very little significance.
To break away from one tradition and conform to another, to leave this leader and follow that, is but a superficial gesture. If we are to be aware of the whole process of authority, if we are to see the inwardness of it, if we are to understand and transcend the desire for certainty, then we must have extensive awareness and insight, we must be free, not at the end, but at the beginning.
