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0一月二十二日 我们能不能仰赖自己的经验
大部分的人会臣服于权威，是因为这能带给我们一种确定感，一种被保护的感觉。若是能了解这种心态里的真相，就会渴望摆脱权威了，不是吗？你不会再去追求任何权威，包括自己创造出来的或是别人强加在我们身上的。这件事有可能办到吗？我有可能不仰赖自己的经验吗？即使我们拒绝了所有外在形式的权威——书籍、老师、僧侣、道场和各种信仰——仍然会仰赖自己的判断、经验或分析。然而我们真的能仰赖自己的经验、判断或分析吗？我的经验就是我的局限，你的经验就是你的局限，不是吗？我可能是在伊斯兰教、佛教或印度教的背景里长大的，所以我的经验必定根植于我的文化、经济、社会及宗教背景，你的也一样，因此我能仰赖这样的背景吗？我能仰赖别人的指导，仰赖希望，仰赖能够帮助我判断的某种洞见吗？这些东西都是累积成的记忆和经验，也就是受限的过去和当下相遇，而它们是可以被仰赖的吗？当我问自己这些问题时，我会开始对其中的真相有所觉察，我会发现只有一种状态能带来实相和崭新的境界，造成真正的改革。心一旦彻底空寂，就不再有分析者、经验或批判，这么一来权威就消失了。
January 22
Can I rely on my experience?
Most of us are satisfied with authority because it gives us a continuity, a certainty, a sense of being protected. But a man who would understand the implications of this deep psychological revolution must be free of authority, must he not? He cannot look to any authority, whether of his own creation or imposed upon him by another. And is this possible? Is it possible for me not to rely on the authority of my own experience? Even when I have rejected all the outward expressions of authority—books, teachers, priests, churches, beliefs—I still have the feeling that at least I can rely on my own judgment, on my own experiences, on my own analysis. But can I rely on my experience, on my judgment, on my analysis? My experience is the result of my conditioning, just as yours is the result of your conditioning, is it not? I may have been brought up as a Muslim or a Buddhist or a Hindu, and my experience will depend on my cultural, economic, social, and religious background, just as yours will. And can I rely on that? Can I rely for guidance, for hope, for the vision which will give me faith in my own judgment, which again is the result of accumulated memories, experiences, the conditioning of the past meeting the present?...Now, when I have put all these questions to myself and I am aware of this problem, I see there can only be one state in which reality, newness, can come into being, which brings about a revolution. That state is when the mind is completely empty of the past, when there is no analyzer, no experience, no judgment, no authority of any kind.
