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4两位来自香港中文大学的INFP高年级博士生，乐呵呵地笑对自己的“无学术产出”。没有效率的同时，也没有焦虑。哈哈。
01:26 论文写作的问题：思维太发散
02:33 论文写作当成KPI，而非创造知识
03:33 美国哈佛博士生的魔鬼学术训练
04:12 松弛的香港和英国学术体系
05:40 规律的学术工作：单调枯燥？高产出？
09:15 焦虑J人：超前规划 v.s. 乐观P人：随心所欲（快乐在平时）
10:00 P人找J人合作，或者靠近J人
12:18 师生关系：在导师面前是个废物？
13:56 田野让我更加自信，统筹资源，敢于找老师
15:30 直呼老师名字让我觉得，我们更平等
16:50 如果没有这些推迟毕业的经历，还会有点可惜
19:20 随着时间的积累，成果会向你走来
23:45 播客在于共在与陪伴，我想记录有趣的人事物
24:38 田野中的软弱与失败经历
25:00 拜访某人前的忐忑，不是只有我很怂，被拒绝了怎么办
26:48 失败不一定引向成功，更重要的是接受自己
P人适合做学术吗？写作没有感觉怎么办？容易分心，换着文章写是良方吗？爆发性写作选手，需要训练自己成为流水线工人吗？跟J人合作会变好嘛？
毫无进展正常吗？停下来就一定是坏事吗？停的作用是什么？
学术是工作还是志业？我做学术是想创造知识，这样会被淘汰吗？学术马拉松选手如何能存活下来？
害怕导师觉得自己很菜怎么办？没有成果找导师聊天会怎么样？跟导师当平等的同事会让自己更有底气吗？
I人能够胜任田野吗？如何不尴尬地开启对话？如何假装共情？当你面对一个大你六十岁的人的时候，当你被一群男性包围的时候，当你去酒会而身体又不适合喝酒的时候，你要怎么办？
去年五月，我离开香港时，历史系的柳柳在写毕业论文，“去年写了三分之一，今年还是只有三分之一。”
她最近刚崴到脚，跟我说起最近的状态，“过去一周很废，躺在床上，啥都没进展。”
但她的心态似乎很不错，挺乐观。
我一时起意，在食堂用餐时跟她讨论起论文写作、博士生活、师生关系、学术体系等话题。这也是因为，我最近在构思一个对于“软弱和失败”的讨论。这源于我对田野工作乃至学术界的反思，也适用于生活的方方面面。
Take Care of Yourself: INFP Female PhD Students Talk About Failure in Academia
Two senior INFP PhD students from the Chinese University of Hong Kong laugh cheerfully about their "lack of academic output." They’re both inefficient but also not anxious. Haha.
01:26 Problems with writing papers: thinking is too scattered
02:33 Treating paper writing as a KPI instead of creating knowledge
03:33 The rigorous academic training of PhD students at Harvard
04:12 Relaxed academic systems in Hong Kong and the UK
05:40 Regular academic work: monotonous and boring? Or highly productive?
09:15 Anxious Judging types: planning ahead vs. Optimistic Perceiving types: going with the flow (enjoying life in the moment)
10:00 Perceiving types collaborating with Judging types, or getting close to them
12:18 Teacher-student relationships: feeling like a failure in front of your advisor?
13:56 Fieldwork has made me more confident, helped me manage resources, and gave me the courage to approach professors
15:30 Calling professors by their first names makes me feel more equal to them
16:50 Without the experience of postponing graduation, I’d feel like I missed out on something
19:20 As time goes by, achievements will come to you
23:45 Podcasts are about being together and offering companionship. I want to document interesting people and things
24:38 Experiences of weakness and failure during fieldwork
25:00 The nervousness before visiting someone—I'm not the only one who’s timid. What if I get rejected?
26:48 Failure doesn’t necessarily lead to success; what’s more important is accepting yourself
Are Perceiving types suited for academia? What should you do if writing doesn’t feel right? If you’re easily distracted, is switching between different articles a good solution? For those who work best in bursts, should they train themselves to be more like assembly line workers? Would collaborating with Judging types improve things?
Is making no progress normal? Is taking a break always bad? What’s the role of stopping?
Is academia a job or a calling? I pursue academia to create knowledge—does this mean I’ll be left behind? How can academic marathon runners survive?
What if you're afraid your advisor thinks you're incompetent? What happens when you have no results to share during meetings? Would considering your advisor an equal make you more confident?
Are introverts suited for fieldwork? How do you start a conversation without feeling awkward? How do you fake empathy? What do you do when facing someone sixty years older than you, when you're surrounded by a group of men, or when you're at a social event but can’t drink?
Last May, when I was leaving Hong Kong, Liu Liu from the History Department was writing her thesis. "I wrote one-third last year, and it's still only one-third this year."
Recently, she sprained her ankle and told me about her current state. "This past week, I’ve been useless, just lying in bed with no progress."
But her attitude seemed quite good—pretty optimistic.
On a whim, I discussed thesis writing, PhD life, teacher-student relationships, and academic systems with her during lunch at the cafeteria. This was also because I’ve been thinking recently about discussing "weakness and failure." It stems from my reflections on fieldwork and academia and applies to many aspects of life as well.
