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0Hello, everyone.
In the past few days, I have been traveling in Kunming and Changde with someone. We stayed together, talked, ate, and walked around. Everything felt quite simple and natural. At first, I told myself: I will just enjoy the moment. I will not explain everything. I will not define the relationship. And I really tried to do that. But even so, I noticed something inside me. When we were together, I felt fine. When we were apart, I sometimes felt a little empty.
I used to think this was because I was overthinking. I asked myself questions like: Does she like me? What are we? What will happen next? But later I realized something. It is not really about thinking too much. It is more about a feeling that appears after connection changes.
I also learned that the brain does not like uncertainty.There is a concept called need for cognitive closure. It means the mind wants clear answers when things are unclear. So when there is no clear answer, the mind tries to create one.
But now I understand something important. Maybe not everything needs an answer. Maybe some connections are just temporary experiences, without a clear label.
I also noticed something about myself. Even when I tell myself not to think too much, my emotions still react. This is part of the emotional system in the brain. It means when I connect with someone, I feel it strongly. And when the connection becomes weaker, I feel a drop inside me.
So I am learning something new. Instead of trying to explain everything, I try to accept the feeling. When I feel empty, I just remind myself: this is normal. It will pass.
Soon, we will go separate ways. I will go to Berlin, and she will continue her own life in Hunan. Maybe we will meet again, maybe not. And I think that is okay. Not everything needs a clear ending. Sometimes, people just share a short part of life together.
So I tell myself now: I can enjoy a connection without needing to explain it.
Ok, good bye, everyone.
