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0每天五分钟听经典英文故事,读绘本,磨耳朵。一个关于自我认同的温暖童话,名字不是标签,是你活过的痕迹。
Xiao Man lived high up in a tall apartment building
Looking down from his balcony, cars looked like rolling tin cans, and people like scattered sesame seeds
But in this city, the most important thing really was cans
Not canned meat, not canned peaches, but name cans
Everyone got a name can on the day they were born
Dad's can was deep blue, like the sea at midnight
Mom's was cream white with tiny flowers on it
Uncle Wang sold breakfast downstairs, his gold can always smelled like fried dough
His classmate Lily had a pink can, covered in sparkles and star stickers
Xiao Man's can was a plain red tin can
His name was written by his mom in black marker
Xiao Man loved his red can
Every morning he'd polish it first thing, every night he'd check the lid was tight
Names were well-behaved little things, they wouldn't run off if you kept them sealed
But one morning, something went wrong
Xiao Man reached for his can on the nightstand
It felt lighter than usual
He lifted the lid and looked inside, it was empty
He shook it upside down, no glowing name jumped out
He checked under the bed, under the pillow, in every drawer
He even looked inside his socks
Nothing
His name was gone
Xiao Man ran downstairs in a panic
Uncle Wang was setting up his stall, his gold can glinting on the counter
Xiao Man asked if he'd seen his name
Uncle Wang looked down and smiled, asking if he wanted to buy fried dough
Uncle Wang didn't recognize him anymore
Xiao Man ran to school
Lily had her pink can on the desk, kids crowded around to see the sparkles
Xiao Man pushed through and asked about his red can
Lily tilted her head and asked who he was
Even his best friend didn't know him
The bell rang
The teacher opened the roll and read every name
She read the whole book, but never said Xiao Man
Xiao Man raised his hand and opened his mouth
No sound came out
People without names don't even get to say "here"
He ran out of school and into the park
An old grandpa was watering flowers by the bed
His can was dark and worn, the label rubbed away like old stone
Xiao Man asked if he'd ever lost his name too
The old man looked at him for a long time, then smiled
He didn't answer, he just kept watering his flowers
Water landed on petals, the petals trembled, and drops rolled into the soil
Xiao Man sat by the fountain, staring at his blurry reflection
Without a name, he looked like a fuzzy shadow
If nobody can call your name, do you really exist
Just then, a ball of orange fur rubbed against his ankle
It was Tangerine
The stray cat he'd been feeding for a whole month
Tangerine had no can, no tag, no collar
Nobody in this city had ever given her a name
But Xiao Man knew her
She was Tangerine when she chased butterflies
She was Tangerine when she rolled in the sun belly-up
She was Tangerine when she waited at the gate at three for dried fish
Nobody gave Tangerine a name can, but Xiao Man knew exactly who she was
He watched her chase a butterfly into the grass
He watched her jump on a bench and curl up to wash her face
She turned her head suddenly, and looked straight at him with round yellow eyes
Xiao Man stood up and ran home
He didn't check trash cans or ask strangers
He ran to his room and closed the door
He took out crayons and drew an orange cat on paper
He gave the cat wings, flying high above the clouds
He dipped his fingers in blue paint, and pressed handprints all over the page
He opened the window and sang his favorite song as loud as he could
He sang loud and off-key, so loud the neighbors peeked out to see
He laughed as he sang, and tears rolled down his face
A tear dropped onto his red tin can
That's when something floated in through the window
A tiny glowing character landed softly in his palm
It was the first part of his name
He held his breath
A few seconds later, another character floated in
It was the second part
The two characters sat quietly in his hand, like two tiny awake fireflies
He gently placed them back in the red can, and closed the lid
He looked down at the can
It had marks on it now
A streak of blue crayon, a dusty cat paw print, a smudge of grease, a teardrop
"Xiao Man, dinner's ready," his mom called from the kitchen
"Coming," he shouted back
He opened the door, the smell of tomato and eggs filled the hall
Dad was setting chopsticks, Mom was scooping rice
Neither of them noticed a thing
They didn't need to open a can to know
When they called his name, he was right there
That night before bed, he put the red can back
He didn't seal the lid tight
He left a little crack open
What if his name wanted to go for a walk again
That was okay
He knew how to call it back
