怦然心动｜Flipped

怦然心动 Flipped.

今天，多吉要讲的是温德琳·范·德拉安南的《怦然心动》，英文名叫 Flipped。 Today, Duoji is telling the story of Flipped, by Wendelin Van Draanen.

朱莉喜欢了邻居男孩好几年。她盼过他牵自己的手，盼过他的一个吻。可等布莱斯终于想吻她，她却躲开，跑走了。这些年，她一直看着他，究竟看漏了什么？ Juli had liked the boy next door for years. She had dreamed of holding his hand, and of a kiss. But when Bryce finally tried to kiss her, she pulled away and ran. After watching him all those years, what had she failed to see?

事情，要从他搬来的那一天说起。 It began on the day he moved in.

搬家车刚停下，朱莉就跑过去帮忙。布莱斯想躲，她偏往前凑。她看见他那双蓝眼睛，觉得这个男孩好极了；他看见这个甩不掉的小姑娘，只想赶快关上门。 The moving truck had barely stopped when Juli came over to help. Bryce tried to get away, but she kept coming closer. She saw his blue eyes and thought he was wonderful. He saw a little girl he could not get rid of, and just wanted to shut the door.

以后几年，他们一直这样错着步子。朱莉找机会和他说话，布莱斯找机会脱身。她把他的躲闪当成害羞，他却觉得她总让自己在同学面前难堪。 For years, they kept missing each other like this. Juli looked for chances to talk to him. Bryce looked for ways to escape. She took his attempts to avoid her as shyness. He felt she was always embarrassing him in front of his classmates.

但朱莉的生活里，也有比布莱斯更让她着迷的东西。 But there were things in Juli's life that fascinated her even more than Bryce.

附近有棵高大的悬铃木。她喜欢爬上去，看熟悉的街道和屋顶在脚下展开。坐在那里，能望得很远。 A tall sycamore tree stood nearby. She loved climbing it and looking down at the familiar streets and rooftops. Up there, she could see so far.

她想让布莱斯也上来看看，他却始终留在下面。 She wanted Bryce to come up and see it too, but he always stayed below.

一天早晨，工人带着工具来砍树。朱莉坐在枝头不肯下来，向赶校车的同学求助。 One morning, workers arrived with tools to cut the tree down. Juli stayed in its branches and refused to come down. She called to the children heading for the school bus, asking for help.

她希望有人留下，尤其希望布莱斯留下。他还是上了车。 She hoped someone would stay, especially Bryce. He got on the bus anyway.

最后，爸爸来接她。她下了树，那棵树也没能留下。后来，爸爸把它画了下来。朱莉能看着画想念它，却再也不能坐回那些枝丫之间。 In the end, her father came for her. She came down, and the tree was cut down. Later, her father painted a picture of it. Juli could look at the painting and remember her tree, but she could never sit among its branches again.

布莱斯知道她很难过，也想过安慰她，可他没有开口。朱莉听不到那些没说出来的话，只记得自己求助时，他走了。 Bryce knew she was upset and had thought about comforting her, but he said nothing. Juli could not hear the words he never spoke. She only remembered that when she asked for help, he had left.

她还不知道，自己送给他家的鸡蛋，也一直被扔进垃圾桶。 She did not yet know that the eggs she brought his family kept ending up in the trash too.

那些母鸡是她认真养大的。鸡蛋多了，她就卖给邻居，挣些钱。只有送给布莱斯家的那份，她不收钱。 She had raised those hens with care. When there were more eggs than her family needed, she sold some to the neighbors. The eggs she brought Bryce's family were the only ones she gave away for free.

每次敲门，都能见他一面，也能把自己养鸡的成果分给他。 Each visit meant seeing him, and sharing something she had worked hard to produce.

布莱斯家却嫌她家院子杂乱，担心鸡蛋不卫生。爸爸让他拒收。他怕把话说出来伤人，又怕惹麻烦，便接过来，偷偷扔掉。一盒又一盒，朱莉一直不知道。 But Bryce's family thought her yard was a mess and worried that the eggs might not be safe to eat. His father told him to stop accepting them. Afraid of hurting her feelings, and of getting into trouble, Bryce took the eggs and secretly threw them away. Carton after carton, Juli had no idea.

直到她撞见他扔鸡蛋。布莱斯解释，问题出在她家那个脏乱的院子。朱莉这才明白，自己每次高高兴兴送来的东西，在他家从来没上过餐桌。 Then she caught him throwing them away. Bryce explained that it was because of her dirty, messy yard. Only then did Juli understand: the eggs she had been so happy to bring had never even reached his family's table.

她不再送了。她也第一次因为自家的院子感到难堪。 She stopped bringing eggs. And for the first time, she felt ashamed of her yard.

可院子为什么会这样，她慢慢知道得更多。房子是租的，父母忙着维持生活，爸爸还要负担大卫叔叔的照护费用。叔叔有智力障碍，住在需要专人照顾的地方。 Gradually, she learned more about why it looked that way. Her family rented their home. Her parents worked hard to make ends meet, and her father also paid for Uncle David's care. David had an intellectual disability and lived in a place where staff could look after him.

爸爸没有很多钱，却一直没有放下自己的弟弟。 Her father did not have much money, but he had never stopped caring for his brother.

朱莉开始动手整理院子。布莱斯的外公过来帮忙，两个人一起清理、种植，也聊起那棵被砍掉的树。 Juli began fixing up the yard. Bryce's grandfather came over to help. As they cleared and planted, they talked about the tree that had been cut down.

布莱斯看着他们，想知道，外公怎么会和朱莉有那么多话可说。 Watching them, Bryce wondered how his grandfather could have so much to say to Juli.

外公早就留意到了这个女孩。他从报纸上读到她护树的事，欣赏她的坚持。布莱斯重新翻看那篇报道。 His grandfather had noticed her long before. He had read about her fight to save the tree in the newspaper and admired her determination. Bryce looked at the article again.

以前，他只顾着担心朱莉让自己丢脸。现在，看着报纸上的她，他却想多了解一点。 Before, all he had worried about was Juli embarrassing him. Now, looking at her picture, he wanted to know more.

她不再来送鸡蛋，他才知道，那些鸡蛋在邻居那里很受欢迎，还能卖钱。她一直免费送给自己家，自己却连拒绝都不肯当面说。 Only after she stopped bringing eggs did he learn how popular they were with the neighbors, and that people paid for them. She had always given his family theirs for free, and he had not even been willing to tell her he could not accept them.

院子里的朱莉仍忙着自己的事，他开始想和她说话，却不知道该怎么走过去。 Juli kept busy with her own work in the yard. He wanted to talk to her now, but did not know how to approach her.

大卫叔叔生日那天，她跟爸爸一起去探望。叔叔收到拼图很高兴。 On Uncle David's birthday, Juli went with her father to visit him. David was delighted with his new jigsaw puzzle.

出去吃冰激凌时，蛋筒掉了，他一下子哭闹起来。爸爸留在那里安抚，朱莉去拿了一个新的，叔叔终于平静下来。 When they went out for ice cream, he dropped his cone and began to cry and shout. Her father stayed with him, trying to calm him. Juli got another cone, and at last David settled down.

回家路上，爸爸说起照顾弟弟的困难，也说起自己有时觉得很失败。他羡慕布莱斯的爸爸，觉得对方比自己成功。 On the way home, her father talked about how hard it was to care for his brother, and how he sometimes felt he had failed. He envied Bryce's father, who seemed more successful.

朱莉却告诉爸爸，以后如果结婚，她希望找一个像他这样的人。 But Juli told her dad that if she got married someday, she would want someone like him.

没过多久，她在图书馆听见布莱斯和朋友谈论叔叔。朋友拿叔叔的智力障碍开玩笑，布莱斯没有站出来制止。 Not long afterward, she overheard Bryce and a friend talking about her uncle in the library. The friend made a cruel joke about David's disability. Bryce did not speak up to stop him.

她刚刚陪叔叔过完生日，还记得爸爸怎样耐心安抚他。布莱斯并不知道这些，却也没有替这个被取笑的人说一句话。 She had just celebrated her uncle's birthday with him. She still remembered how patiently her father had calmed him. Bryce knew none of that, but he had not said a word in defense of the person being mocked.

她不愿再和他说话，可星期五，两家人偏偏要一起吃晚饭。 She did not want to speak to him anymore. Yet on Friday, their families were supposed to have dinner together.

到了布莱斯家，她告诉他，图书馆里的话，她都听见了。布莱斯后悔没有制止朋友，可朱莉听见那些话的时候，并不知道他心里在后悔。 At Bryce's house, she told him she had heard everything in the library. Bryce regretted not stopping his friend. But when Juli heard those words, she had no way of knowing he regretted them.

晚饭中，父亲问起朱莉两个哥哥今后的打算。兄弟俩想做音乐，还拿出了自己攒钱录的歌。布莱斯的姐姐把歌放给大家听。 During dinner, Bryce's father asked Juli's two brothers about their plans. They wanted to make music and had brought songs they had saved up to record. Bryce's sister played them for everyone.

客人走后，父亲却猜测，他们录歌的钱是贩毒赚来的。姐姐愤怒地反驳，父亲打了她一巴掌。 After the guests left, his father suggested the boys had paid for the recording by selling drugs. His sister angrily challenged him. He slapped her across the face.

布莱斯佩服姐姐敢站出来，自己却总是事后才后悔。以前别人说他像爸爸，他觉得是夸奖。那天晚上，他再想起这句话，已经高兴不起来了。 Bryce admired his sister for speaking up. He himself always seemed to regret his silence afterward. When people used to say he was like his father, he took it as a compliment. That night, the thought no longer made him happy.

他也忘不掉朱莉临走前的样子。她为刚来时的怒气道了歉，还碰了碰他的胳膊，弄得他晕乎乎的。 He could not forget Juli just before she left, either. She had apologized for being angry when she arrived and touched his arm, leaving him dizzy.

可再到学校，她却只对他客气。她不再缠着他，见面也能打招呼，却好像不需要他了。 But back at school, she was simply polite. She no longer followed him around. She still said hello, but it was as though she no longer needed him.

学校随后举办筹款活动，被选中的男孩准备午餐，其他人竞价，和他一起吃。布莱斯入选了。 Then the school held a fundraiser. Selected boys would pack lunches, and other people would bid to share a meal with them. Bryce was chosen.

朱莉听说别的女孩准备竞拍他，心里仍然不好受。她把钱留在家里，免得自己到了现场，又忍不住为他举手。 It still hurt Juli to hear that other girls planned to bid on him. She left her money at home so she would not be tempted to raise her hand for him after all.

可上学路上，一位邻居付了欠她的鸡蛋钱。轮到乔恩时，台下没有人出价。朱莉不愿让这个温和的男孩站在那里难堪，便拿出了刚收到的钱。 But on her way to school, a neighbor paid her for some eggs. When Jon's turn came, nobody bid. Juli did not want this gentle boy to stand there feeling humiliated, so she offered the money she had just received.

布莱斯看见她举手，整个人乱了。她喜欢乔恩了吗？ Bryce saw her raise her hand and felt completely thrown. Did she like Jon now?

两个女孩合伙竞拍到了他的午餐，他却一直留意着朱莉那一桌。身边的人取笑另一个女孩，他听着别扭；再看过去，朱莉正和乔恩说笑。 Two girls teamed up to win his lunch, but he kept watching Juli's table. The girls beside him were mocking another girl, and it made him uncomfortable. He looked over again. Juli was laughing and talking with Jon.

他离开座位，走到朱莉身边，拉住她的手，问她是不是喜欢乔恩。她说不是。 He left his seat, went over to Juli, and took her hand. Did she like Jon? She said no.

他随即想吻她，朱莉却躲开，匆忙离开了餐厅。 Then he tried to kiss her. Juli pulled away and hurried out of the cafeteria.

她回到家，把自己关进房间。她努力了那么久，想不再喜欢他，却还是会在意谁和他一起吃午餐。 She went home and shut herself in her room. She had tried so hard to stop liking him, yet she still cared who ate lunch with him.

可他突然靠过来的时候，她也确实不愿意。妈妈来问，她才把图书馆里的话和今天的事一起讲出来。 But when he suddenly leaned toward her, she had not wanted that either. Only when her mother asked did she tell her about the library and what had happened that day.

布莱斯的朋友又拿朱莉来嘲笑他。这一次，他让对方住口。如果朋友只能这样取笑他喜欢的人，他也不想再和对方做朋友了。 Bryce's friend teased him about Juli again. This time, Bryce told him to stop. If all his friend could do was mock the girl he liked, Bryce did not want to be his friend anymore.

布莱斯去找朱莉，她不愿见。朱莉的妈妈劝他给她一点时间。 Bryce went to see Juli, but she refused to see him. Her mother told him to give her some time.

她也提醒女儿，人是会变的。朱莉听进去了，可电话再响起来，她还是不愿接。 She also reminded her daughter that people could change. Juli took that in, but when the phone rang again, she still did not want to answer.

几天后，她发现他正在自家院子里挖土。那片草才刚刚长出来，是她好不容易种起来的。爸爸却告诉她，自己已经同意布莱斯在这里做一件事。 A few days later, she found him digging in her front yard. The grass had only just begun to grow. She had worked so hard to plant it. But her father told her he had given Bryce permission to do something there.

她再看过去，才认出他带来的小树。 She looked again and recognized the little tree he had brought.

是一棵悬铃木。 It was a sycamore.

朱莉看着他把树种好。她还没想好要对他说什么，也不知道他们以后会怎样。 Juli watched him finish planting it. She did not yet know what to say to him, or what might happen between them.

但等他再来敲门，也许，她愿意听一听了。院子里，多了一棵小小的悬铃木。 But perhaps, the next time he knocked, she would be willing to listen. There was a little sycamore tree in her yard now.

如果你已经能读英文原著，也想听听朱莉和布莱斯各自怎样讲述这些事，可以到多吉的橱窗选购《怦然心动》英文原著 Flipped。 If you can already read novels in English and want to hear how Juli and Bryce each tell their side of the story, you can buy the English edition of Flipped from Duoji's shop.