So I’ve been doing some thinking lately. I was just scrolling through domestic recruitment websites. This is the first time I have opened them since I decided to resign Among them, I found that I was still instinctively interested in jobs like foreign trade. Then I began to think about why I left my previous foreign trade job and what my thoughts are as a newcomer to this industry who has now left. First of all, in the third episode, I mentioned why I quit my job. It's because I really hate the nine-to-five work routine. It makes me feel trapped somewhere, in other words, trapped in a certain lifestyle. Moreover, I have found that no matter what kind of lifestyle it is, once it exceeds three months, I am bound to feel bored and even develop negative emotions such as depression or anxiety. Therefore, when I was working from nine to five, I was extremely eager for a free life. However, half a year after I quit my job, I would subconsciously and unconsciously open the recruitment app again This sounds rather strange. Of course, this is just a pattern I've discovered that belongs to me. It sounds like someone who can't persist and can't succeed in the conventional sense. And I'm also thinking that perhaps my life state should flow, whether it's a change in content or a change in geographical location. This is also why I found that after graduation, I couldn't stay in one city for more than a year. I would always start to feel bored after about three months. Now that I have quit my job and stayed in my hometown for about four months, I have become a little numb in my heart. I have started to miss Hangzhou again - the city where I spent my four years of university. But this time I clearly know that if I choose to go back again, I will definitely want to leave in three months. Even all my previous jobs couldn't escape the three-month rule. I was always full of enthusiasm and motivation at the beginning. Even if I worked 10 hours a day, I wouldn't feel tired. But after three months…you know.. I'm still in the process of exploration. I want to transfer both my work content and form to be completed online, so that I can achieve flexible geographical relocation. But I'm still exploring exactly what kind of work content it will be, which is why I opened the recruitment apps today. I’ve always believed foreign trade is one of China’s key industries. It has been since ancient times—just look at the Silk Road, which opened over 2,000 years ago. That’s solid proof of how long China’s been engaged in global trade. Nowadays, china has become the world's factory. "made in china" is our reputation. However, I have always believed that China's subsequent foreign trade will pay more attention to the dissemination of spirit and culture. For example, since the release of Black Myth: Wukong last year, which has achieved huge commercial success and wide cultural influence worldwide and it also declare that the overseas potential market for Chinese cultural and creative products is so huge. Therefore, I believe that in the future, foreign trade business personnel will not only need to have professional knowledge of products, but more importantly, they will play the role of a bridge for information exchange and dissemination between China and western countries. In the future, how to tell China's story well to foreign countries will be one of the essential abilities for a successful foreign trade professional. In the end, any experience in life has only one function - to better understand ourselves. You know, we can't have it forever. The meaning of a lifetime is to experience. All the joys and sorrows, partings and reunions, are to bring you closest to your true self. So there's no need to follow. Everyone's life is irreplaceable.

Episode 04: Living in the Present Moment I've realized I often fail to live in the present. Before we begin today, I want to ask you guys: Do you feel like you're truly present in your daily life? Out of 24 hours, how much time do you actually spend fully engaged in the moment, without distractions? Lately, I noticed my attention span was short. My most frequent activity is mindlessly scrolling through social media, watching other people's highlight reels. This constant comparison of my life and others’ became toxic - I'd spiral into self-doubt, questioning why my life didn't seem as exciting, even wondering about my own worth. These negative thoughts became quicksand, and I was sinking fast. So today, let's briefly talk about reclaiming presence. When I recognized this pattern, my first step was quitting social media cold turkey. Beyond messaging friends, I stopped posting and scrolling entirely. Suddenly, my attention returned to myself. Now when I'm bored, I'll pick up a book instead of my phone. Here's the hard truth: we think we control our devices, but really? They control us. Those algorithms know us scarily well, feeding us an endless stream of tailored content that drains our creativity and autonomy, turning us into puppets. But here's what surprised me: When I read, write, or create content, I never feel tired - even after long workdays. These activities ground me in the present. So I intentionally carved out more "energy-boosting" moments: journaling before bed, reading during lunch breaks, writing at dusk. So my suggestion is do small steps at first - maybe just one diary entry. Next day, two book pages plus journaling. Gradually, these fragments of focused time became addictive. Without forcing it, my screen time shrank while reading and reflection grew. Most importantly? My awareness sharpened. More often, I catch myself fully present - not dwelling on the past or agonizing over the future. That focused state is sth powerful. The key? Don't force identical routines. Your version might be meditation, exercise, or singing. No rigid schedules needed. Once you taste that presence, you'll naturally crave more. That's the magic of building this habit. Remember: Go gently. Some days you won't feel like doing anything - and that's okay. Our mere existence holds meaning. You are enough, exactly as you are.

"Do What Gives You Energy" Hey everyone, I AM BACK!!! - after a whole year! So much has changed. After graduation last year, I moved to Ningbo and started my first job. I switched companies twice in less than a year - went from being super excited about this new chapter to... completely hating working life. Here's the thing: work made me numb. I stopped looking forward to anything, even things I used to love. That's when I knew something was wrong. Finally, I admitted it to myself: I don't like working a 9-to-5. I realized I only started this life to make my family happy - so they wouldn't think I was being lazy after graduation. And honestly? Society expects this too. They don't want you to think for yourself - they just want you to be another cog in the machine. But this isn't the life I want. Until age 22, I was used to handing myself over completely - first to teachers, then to bosses. It's actually pretty lazy when you think about it - letting others tell you what to do instead of figuring it out yourself. The scary part? I actually liked it at first. It let me avoid asking the hard question: "What do I really want?" Work is like this massive obedience test that society created - and anyone with self-awareness eventually realizes it's soul-crushing. These past two months back in Yunnan, my hometown, I’ve been rediscovering myself. Reading books that actually excite me (no reading lists!), trusting my intuitions more, overthinking less. Here's what I’ve learned: When you're doing what you truly want, you don't get tired. In fact, you gain energy. Like today - I was feeding my cat when it hit me: "My podcast! I haven't updated in a year!" Suddenly I just HAD to record all these thoughts. I felt this rush of energy - a craving I hadn't felt in so long. And I'd already had a long day, but when I think about it, thinking about making new episode for my Podcast, I don’t feel any tired at all. However, this wasn't about followers or views - I just feel like I needed to do it. That feeling? That's your intuition. And if you follow it consistently, it'll lead you exactly where you need to be. So if you haven't felt truly happy in a while - stop. Just pause. Find what makes your heart race. Maybe it's dinner with family. Maybe it's reading a book. Maybe it's writing in a journal. Start listening to that voice - it's your soul speaking. And here, I wanna give a huge shoutout to my amazing friends – they kept asking when I'd update, and after I released those first two episodes, their encouragement fueled me to keep creating!"

If you could see your whole life from the start to the finish, would you change things? Despite knowing the journey, and where it leads, I embrace it, and I welcome every moment of it. ”一瞥之下，过去与未来轰轰然同时并至，我的意识成为长达半个世纪的灰烬，时间未至已成灰。五十年诸般纷纭并发眼底，我的余生尽在其中。还有，你的一生。“—《你一生的故事》 The second episode of the podcast, E02, is narrated by the science fiction film Arrival. In this episode, I talk about time, aliens, language, and dimensions. The film is based on the short story of Your Life by Ginger Teler. The audio starts and ends from the novel and the film. In fact, it doesn't matter what the podcast says, it aims to convey an atmosphere of comfort and ease of healing to the listener. 播客第二集E02由科幻电影《降临》展开叙述，我在这一集里讨论了关于时间，外星人，语言，维度的话题，该电影改编自姜•特勒的短篇小说《你一生的故事》，音频的首尾都来自于小说和电影，之所以都采用英文来录制，是为了做到尽力还原，其实播客说了什么不重要，旨在向听众传达出舒适和轻松疗愈的氛围。

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